As I mentioned the other day, I'm doing a 30 day dietary "reset," I'm about 20% done with it, actually. It's going surprising well so far, at least where eating is concerned, not a lot of cravings, in fact, the diet it's a lot easier than I thought it would be and I have a lot of support. The hardest thing about it is, I'm sure you guessed by the title, mom guilt.
At first, it's sort of hard to imagine why simply cutting a few items out of one's diet would be enough to convince a person that they are a horrible mom. But, if you've ever done it, you know you spend a LOT of time thinking about what you can't eat. And if you've cut a major staple like meat or, in my case, grains out of your diet, you spend a LOT of time trying to come up with new recipes...chunks of meat with veggies loses its' appeal, sooner rather than later. Plus, actually having to cook three meals a day when you can't just pour a bowl of cereal or make a sandwich is time consuming, especially since there's not a lot of nitrate, msg, sugar, grain-free meat and veggie "convenience items." Dieting really is consuming, mentally, emotionally, and chronologically. And the first thing a mom feels, when consumed by the thought of something other than her wee bairns, is guilt.
It's also hard on the kids. If you're used to eating sugar, not eating sugar can make you crabby, that's all I'm gonna say about that. On my particular diet I can drink coffee, but if you've ever tried not drinking coffee, you know that your attitude can weigh on your kids, too. Also, suddenly, the way your kids are used to eating changes, and they don't really like it. Either they have to eat your "diet" food, in my case means a lot of veggies and a lot of spice a lot of the time, which they won't eat enough of to sustain them for very long, or a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches which really isn't a well-balanced diet. More mom guilt.
Anyway, it's funny to realize that the thing that hinders me most is feeling like I'm letting down my kids in some way, by trying to get healthier. But, it's really about short term goals vs. long term goals. No, I don't want to be snappy today, but if they have to deal with me being a little withdrawn now so that I can be healthy overall, it's worth it. I think it's worth it.